patient

its comes back around so quickly ...
it always catches me unawares
these hicupping, frame-wracking, shuddering breathless fits
anger or fear or pain or tears ...
while u just sit there helplessly watch urself
and keep saying over and over again:
'get a grip. keep calm. wait for it to pass'
wiggle ur big toe.
i was wrong. in the end, everyone's a billian.
u just gotto keep away from the f race.