secret wish list ....

cnbc
a new windshield for free
a new door lock
new lenses ... or a laser treatment
for baba, ma & tupi, leo to get 'alright' and live on :)
learn to look cool when Im shitting bricks
not get scared when I meet new people
being more open with everyone about certain things ... like how much they are pissing me off
jinx and chatto :)
become thin ... skinny ... like barely there :)
wakeup and find that by some strange magic Ive become nice looking
a guy ... my true love ... to appear by magic
a sense of direction (i mean geographically ... primarily)
to be assigned to germany / new zealand / china and south america
then spain
to get a dream job
to go through a week without being told "why are you so irresponsible" or "which world do you live in" or "how COULD you do something like that" or "when will u learn to take your life seriously"
stop losing my temper all the time but learn how to stay mad at people who r mean to me
lose the teddy fixation

i could go on ... but one should be reasonable ... lol

listening to ... a blast from the past - we used to hear this in school ...
All at once,
I finally took a moment and I'm realizing that
Your not coming back
And it finally hit me all at once
All at once,
I started counting teardrops and at least a million fell
My eyes began to swell,
And all my dreams were shattered all at once

Ever since I met you
You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
Though I must face it all alone
All at once, I'm drifting on a lonely see
Wishing you'd come back to me
And that's all that matters now
All at once, I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once

All at once,
I looked around and found that you were with another love
In someone else's arms,
And all my dreams were shattered, all at once
All at once
The smile that used to greet me brightened someone else's day
She took your smile away
And left me with just memories, all at once