Now

saviour ...
come save me
i cant deal with
how i feel

bitch
but how i love her
i'd kill her
and then stay in worship

i cant
live here
in this moment
that i am mesmerized, frozen in

cant
run away
to sanity
and freedom, away from her

waif
spirit
ghoul
ghost

trapped
by thread of lead
to the body
cant let go

body yet
full of fire ants
and acid dirt horrors shame
and memories. cant go back

so i melt another sun
and hold it in my palm
and tip my cupped hand
to pour it down

and i strike another moon alight
and blow an underwater storm
and cover it up with calm rivulets,
neatly.