Wimbledon .... AWESOME!

theres a strange light in the sky today
the moon glows like a blushing bride

theres a strange magic in the air today
wish u were by my side

i stood alone on the crowded road
and looked at the moon behind castle-rock

then a jealous cloud floated across
and hid her in a purple mist

i waited a while and then giving up,
was just about to walk on home

when she popped out again
as though smiling impishly

silly moon, it was way too soon
wouldve gladly waited eternity

pardon the corny poetry but the sky is so beautiful its quite gone to my head! im drunk on beautiful the world is.

life is beautiful. there is pain. like agony tearing out your stomach. there is failure, shame, anger, restless dissatisfaction, humger for something ... unknown unseen ... teasing, taunting, from a distance. but you never just quite know what it is ... BUT those are just fleeting, in the end. like the purple clouds. behind them, the great big expanse of life ... is dazzlingly beautiful, and its all mine. tonight ...

but its hard to be this way always. hard to forget. its hard to forgive. its hard to be as kind to yourself as you can be to anyone else. and unfortunately, no one else can ever do it for you.

on the lighter side, had a wonderful weekend. saw wimbeldon. brilliant. reminded me why i have always had a brit fixation. im looking fwd to bridget jones 2. i love all 3 of those people!

a shameful admission ... i always cry at movies :( whatever the movie is i just forget its a movie and i laugh and cry and for those few hours, i forget that i have my own individual seperate life outside. i lose myself. i love that.