Everybody said I should forget

I fell in love with a strange land.

One day, it went back to its people,

And I was banished

I wandered, in my heart,

I was happy with my mourning and memories

And when I closed my eyes,

I roamed its streets

And whoever I spoke to, I heard its voices

So I told myself it didn’t matter,

Reality, and other trivialities.

But then they said I should forget.

And I felt cold and lonely

So I left my mind, and stepped out

Into the world

And now I have forgotten
the memories of Eden
My heart only remembers there was something:
a sound, a sight, a feeling without which i cant bear to be 

And the needs which the world cannot replace

Still throb; sometimes a glow, sometimes a fire

In misunderstood conversations

In books that are undiscussed

In jokes that dawn a strange look

In fights and debates
In every day, in every second
in unremembered memories
and disowned desires.

In dreams. In wounds and scars of a secret beginning

In the unrequited admirations for forgetful fathers
In the evening news. In the morning breeze
In neighborhood gossip. And deep reflection

In ambitions for greatness and purity

In humble simplicity
If the heart has danced with the devil once
can it be saved
it just dances on in the moonlight

Alone